Lucky 7

Decent end to the month with 7 winning sessions in a row after having my worse ever run, didnt keep track but think I had about 17 out of 20ish loosing session at one point (at higher stakes than my recent good run). At that point it felt id never win at poker again, amazing what a few small winning sessions do for your mentality

When I see some guys (brennan, my brother in law) playing professionally I dont know how they do it. On my bad run I was clearly running bad but my mentality made it far worse. If I had been doing it for a living it would have been even worse! Poker feels easy when you are running well, as normal its the bad times that test me and I'm not up to it at certain stakes. The positive about going bust is it got me back to basics and have ended Feb about £400 up (was down £600 at one point). Still down for the year after the Jan busto meltdown.

Atleast I dont tilt so much at NL50. I clearly beat NL100 & 200 over last 3 years but when I run bad I loose more than I should. However with Febs small profit and rake back etc I will be nearing the bankroll to play NL100 again. Its been a grind getting back up but is also a sense of achievement rather than dipping into savings where a lot of last years winnings went

Busting the bankroll is horrible and hopefully I dont do it again for a long time............ its probably even money that I do it again next month but am going to try real hard not to!!

Grinding

Been a few weeks since my last post. I was having trouble getting a bankroll started and was really trying to do it with spin ups. Was breaking even and getting frustrated so decided to do it properly and get my head down to some NL50 grinding. Apart from the copuple of short sessions in Jan when I was bust havent really played NL50 in a LONG time (if ever actually as I started at NL100 I think). Anyway needed to get some pattern and discipline back. Grinded for last 2 weeks, only time I ventured up stakes was to NL100 to follow a fish so been happy with discipline.

Anyway I've managed to grind up a bankroll and am now in decent profit for the month. Played between Betfair and Laddies but going to stick with laddies as Betfair has had major connection issues.

Also bought a car this month plus baby is getting closer which means big £ on baby stuff, they were reasons for cash flow issues and the need to grind! However has done me good and feel I'm back to basics. Tilted once or twice but nothing major. Think i've run pretty well also but now should be able to have a proper month in April as have a decent Bankroll again. Will play between NL50 100 and see how it goes