Lucky 7

Decent end to the month with 7 winning sessions in a row after having my worse ever run, didnt keep track but think I had about 17 out of 20ish loosing session at one point (at higher stakes than my recent good run). At that point it felt id never win at poker again, amazing what a few small winning sessions do for your mentality

When I see some guys (brennan, my brother in law) playing professionally I dont know how they do it. On my bad run I was clearly running bad but my mentality made it far worse. If I had been doing it for a living it would have been even worse! Poker feels easy when you are running well, as normal its the bad times that test me and I'm not up to it at certain stakes. The positive about going bust is it got me back to basics and have ended Feb about £400 up (was down £600 at one point). Still down for the year after the Jan busto meltdown.

Atleast I dont tilt so much at NL50. I clearly beat NL100 & 200 over last 3 years but when I run bad I loose more than I should. However with Febs small profit and rake back etc I will be nearing the bankroll to play NL100 again. Its been a grind getting back up but is also a sense of achievement rather than dipping into savings where a lot of last years winnings went

Busting the bankroll is horrible and hopefully I dont do it again for a long time............ its probably even money that I do it again next month but am going to try real hard not to!!